The Waiting Room

Are you there, God? It's me, Sarah...I'm waiting...

We’ve all been there at one time or another: playing the waiting game.  Waiting for a light to change.  Waiting for a bus to come.  Waiting to see if we’ve passed.  Waiting on a phone call.  Waiting for a test result.  Waiting, waiting, waiting.  What does all this waiting teach us anyway?  Why is it so frustrating?

I’m experiencing a waiting period which is fine most of the time, but other times it’s really hard.  Yet, through all the waiting and my frustrations, I am learning to trust God more and know that His time is best.  What would we ever learn if God just gave us everything we asked for when we asked for it?  Absolutely nothing.  What would be the point of our Heavenly Father?  A good father doesn’t just give his children whatever they wish when they wish.  That does not teach them patience.  That does not make them thankful when, if ever, they receive what they ask for; instead, it makes them selfish and ungrateful.

I have such a problem letting go and letting God.  I have trouble not handing over the reins for important decisions to God and trusting that He won’t lead me astray.  I want things my way, right now.  But that’s not how God operates; He does things deliberately and on His time scale, not mine.  He knows what I lack and what I need to learn; He knows areas that I need to grow in and provides me with opportunities to do so, even when those opportunities may look inopportune.  I have an inkling this is what is going on in my life right now and God is acting through my waiting.

The thing that makes following God so beautiful, our free will, also makes it so easy to wander away from Him if we continue to focus on the “me, me, me” aspects of day to day living.  I admit I am guilty of it too.  I tend to worry a lot about many things that don’t really matter in the long run, focusing on only myself.  I worry about what the future holds for me.  What’s my situation going to be like tomorrow, a couple of months, years?  Will I still be at this point, still waiting?  However, Jesus says in Matthew 6:25, “Therefore I say unto you, take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on.  Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?” and Matt 6:33-34, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.  Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself.  Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.”

Simply, trust God.  And when it gets unbearable, tell God and trust Him some more.

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