These last few months have been insane-in-the-membrane. No joke. I’ve been working a crazy schedule the last month or so in the lab. Sometimes I go in about 8:30am. Sometimes I get to leave about 6pm. And I get paid for 20hrs a week…ha ha ha, that’s funny. Sometimes I even get to eat lunch. Yup. Those are the best days.
And I’ve had a couple of visits from the parentals and Amy J.–which were fantabulous, I must say. I’m so glad they got to come down and visit! I’m sorry that I had to be in lab some of the day though, science just doesn’t take breaks. Saying that, it sounds like I’m one of those die-hard science folk that just love spending every waking hour in lab. Not so. I enjoy doing lab work. I don’t mind having to stay late on occasion. But what people sometimes don’t realize is that for most major scientists, they eat, sleep, and breathe science…24/7. I wonder if some have time for family stuff. It’s crazy. I knew this somewhat going in, but seeing and living it myself for the last few weeks, I don’t think I want this. In fact, I KNOW I don’t want this…at least not at that level. I’m more of a low-key kind of person. I don’t want to be in the forefront of new science discoveries, that’s just not me. I’m the kind of person who is a very hard worker, but wants direction. I want to have someone above me. I don’t want to have to come up with grants regularly. I don’t want to have to worry about producing papers to keep my job. Psh. To me, all of that takes the fun right out of science. I know I’m here at this school for a reason, and that God has a purpose for me. I just don’t think that purpose is going to lead into a major scientific career. I want to be here because I’ve wanted this for a long time, and God is helping me through it. He is so awesome!
Speaking of awesome, I have been studying for this comprehensive biology exam since May that I have to pass to formally be admitted as a MS candidate for my program. It was an oral exam in which my PhD committee members could ask me anything they felt like in biology and I had to impress them enough to pass. I have been fretting over this for a while, what for the lack of direction an oral exam has (what you’ll be asked, how you should answer, varies A LOT) and just the mass volume of biological knowledge you have to try and cram into your brain and retain…it’s insane. Anyway, I PASSED and never, I repeat, NEVER have to go through that again. I had to wait about 15 minutes out in the hallway by myself after my exam while my committee discussed whether or not I passed. Longest 15 min of my life. I was just thinking of how much I didn’t want to go back to my room that was covered in notes, diagrams, open textbooks and opened Wikipedia on my laptop and spend the rest of my summer re-learning and trying to retain all of that info. My head was about to explode. I did pass with conditions…conditions that say I need some remedial work in cell biology (psh, who likes cell biology?), so I need to either sit in on a class or do a seminar for my lab on general stuff. We’re going to work out the details soon. Most importantly, I passed. Our class is 12-1 on that front! Go team!
I was sort of nervous about the test, but not too terribly much when I was answering questions. I could definitely tell God helped keep me calmer than I normally would have been. And I had so many family and friends praying for me, so I want to thank you guys! I love you! Praise God! I know He will lead me where I have to go.
Anyway, I’m off to sit on my bum and not do crap for the rest of the day. I earned it. Wohoo!!!